The job sitch continues to bomb. I think about this, and because I'm me, I wonder if this is a sign. (Everything is a sign. Also, I am nuts.) But for real, I'm wondering if maybe this is a message that I need to do something different. That my path forward isn't at a passionless job. Droning myself out for a paycheck. Because that's not what I want anyway, I've only been pursuing it because I thought that what I should be doing. What I thought I should be doing.
That's gotten me into worlds of trouble before.
I've had this idea for a cafe for years. Like since high school when I ran the "coffee bar" at the concerts in our church basement. It developed into a full-blown concept in the later years of my Starbucks tenure, while I watched the company devolve from a coffee house into a corporate outpost. It's an idea that won't leave me alone, just like that nagging feeling you should be exercising while you're vegging on the couch. You know it's right, but it's work and you don't know where to start.
I'll be super honest- I know how to run a business, but I have no idea how to start one. And I'm kinda hung up at that starting point. Well, that and my fear that I won't be able to raise the capital to begin. I have no doubt about being successful. I'm not being egotistical, I just believe in my concept.
Here's what I want to accomplish. I want to build a community meeting place. I want it to feel like a living room, where moms can bring their kids and not worry about them breaking things or being too loud, where writers can find a corner and sit all day without feeling pushed out after an hour. A place where teenagers can hang out without being discriminated against for acting like teens. I want live music on weekends, open mic nights, local bands. I want to sponsor volunteer activities, and hire stay-at-home moms to help with baking in the middle of the day while their kids are at school (because seriously, try to find a job that fits that need). I want good, locally roasted coffee, homemade food (bacon cupcakes), and discounts for "for here" cups. I don't want a drive-thru. I want to know my customers, and I want them to know each other as well.
I want to write, but I don't think that's why I'm here. The world may be smaller because of all our technology, but our level of personal interaction is so reduced. My greatest moments are when I get to connect with someone else. Working with a new mom to find a pair of jeans that make her feel good in her changed body, figuring out the perfect drink for someone who's never had anything but Folgers. Meeting a person you've only ever talked to online, and becoming real friends. Being at a concert and the entire crowd is singing along. It's community. And there's not enough of it. I want to make some more.
Listening to: Damien Jurado "Water Ave S."